Of course I want to fall in love with him again. That would be easier…less complicated.
Going our separate ways, after coming so close to having everything we always said we wanted, would be such a sad tale.
But I can’t deny that part of me just wants something new; is exhausted by everything familiar. This relationship, house, work, people, city; hasn’t provided me with a spark in years. At least it feels that way.
And that’s not his fault; has nothing to do with what he is or isn’t doing. It might just be the way I’m built: thrill-seeking junkie.
Well, there is some “him” stuff, but it’s so trite. Work out more, do something different with your hair, read my mind about what would turn me on at this moment, because lately it seems to be the exact opposite of what you’re doing.
Maybe I need to go back to therapy to work through this stuff I can’t quite seem to figure out on my own.
I want to be happy. I want him to be happy. We deserve it all.
Is it possible to fall in love again with something so familiar?