I have a lot of rage sometimes, and for some reason, my parents, bring out that rage easily. Oh…why is it so easy to regress with the rents around…? It’s like I’m sixteen all over again; fighting with them over my curfew and where I want to go, yelling about how they need to stay out of my room, and sneaking out so I can get drunk and do foolish things with boys. It’s like all that stuff that I’ve learned as an adult that’s lived on her own since the age of 18, and figured out how to earn a living and how to have better relationships and how to communicate with logic and diplomacy, just goes out the window in thirty seconds.
Maybe it has something to do with being Polish. We’re passionate people. And not passionate like we like to paint and talk about what we’re feeling inside, passionate like we like to fight for what we believe in and are convinced the person with the biggest bark is going to win that fight. Even though it’s Christmas, and we’re supposed to be nice to each other, and feeling grateful we made it another year, and remembering there are much bigger tragedies than not seeing eye-to-eye about a house. It’s true. There are. So…what is the lesson for me? Don’t mix business with family. Just don’t do it, even though it might make life a little easier from a financial perspective, it’s not worth it. And enjoy the time you have with your family, even though they can be major bull-headed a-holes, they’re not going to be around forever.
Here’s what I’ve been listening to in November and December:
1. Love is Blindness by Jack White
2. Since I’ve Been Loving You by Led Zeppelin
3. Heaven by The Rolling Stones
4. Dancin’ Til Dawn by Lenny Kravitz
5. The Voyeur by White Arrows
6. Lonely Boy by The Black Keys
7. The Way I Feel by Jonathan Wilson
8. I Belong To You by Muse
9. The Wanderer by U2